cant sleep... i decided... the best thing for me to do is not to let u noe bout it... cause at lest we are frendz... i am contented with it.... as long as u are happy i am fine..... furthermore,  nowadays u look happier.. it looks lyk it helps... i am glad that it help.. Now i really hope nothing bad happeneds and we can still remain as frendz... cause i am beginning to enjoy myself.... hope this last long...
xoxo FIFI

Everytime We Touch 
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so.
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so.
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

I dont noe wat to do.... i am so so confuse..... i dont even noe how i feel for u... could u give me a sign.... any sign and i am happy. ... it is fucking tiring to lyk u without u knowing.... i am not sure if u noe... but yah... if one day u found out dat i lyk u, can we still be frendz?? 

FUCKING MESSED-UP

yesterday was sports day.. was super fun... shouted until had no voice.... when enjoying..... this griffin guy... (i tink in charge for the sports) came and ask me, vivian, lyssetta and michelle if we wan to run the 4x100m race.... i always kind of wanted to run in a race... but i noe i dont run very fast.... so told the guys to ask sam..... sam agreed but vivian dun wan... =.= .... so.... with out much persuasive........ (cause i wanted to try how it feels...) i ran... i was the freaking first runner.... and as i guess... i turned out last..... i hope i was at lest closed to the scond last runner...... =.=... so yah... i was kind of happy to be the first runner anyway... cause not much ppl noticed me...... XD!!!!... so yah... all they can see is... just a griffen runner running the last.... =.= .... i wanna run next year!!! i dunno why but yah.... it is fun!!! going to pull sam in next year.... but this time i shall do a little warming up first... really tinking why did the guys ask me at all... i dont look lyk the kind that will be running.... nvr mind.... at lest i tried... XDpictures... not in order....
vivian..... lol...
griffin cheering!!
guess who.... (the yellow guy)the stadium from far
my dirty shoes........ not really dirty lar... quite clean
griffin winning the cheering trophy!!! AGAIN!!!!


BYE BYES!!! XD

Bleh...... ok.... just came here to sa hi..... =.=....
so today..... the day was quite boring and my hair was in a bad hair day ( actually... everyday i have bad hair... expecially after recess *looks at alex* sometimes) so...... ok.... and i was super shock when i heard that MR LIM(sam) HAS RESIGN!!!!... i was lyk wad the hell..... he is one of the teacher that i kind of really lyk studying lit from...... not so boring.... quite lively..... WHY WHY HE RESIGN!!!.... ok... nvr mind =.=
than after school..... the newspaper arrived.... after packing it in the class.... we went to queensway to eat and settle the t-shirts..... the ride there was not a very nice one..... i was squashed...=.=.... too little space..... than the guys went to eat at mac and girls went to eat at the LAKSA AND CURRY RICE STALL..... than...
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.......(skiping parts)
eat finished.... we went to the top floor and settle the class t-shirts.... with the design on the t-shirts...... (of course dummy) it cause 18 dollars.... than cheng kiat was kind of lyk begging the aunty to charge less.... bargan for a while and we got it at 17 dollars.... 1 dollar different... =.=.... but still alot when u times 40.....
than after much deleys..... i reach back home safely in one piece... =.=....

ps: the size of the shirts so big leh.... small size lyk medium

pss: bao yi and the other smalled sized ppl sure need XS or even worst XXS....=.=

psss: hope no one gets XXL in our class XD

pssss: i love u guys!!!!

psssss: I NOE I SOUND DUMB

pssssss: i shall stop this "psss....." thingy...

psssssss: GOOD BYE!!!!

....... i am kind of pissed today.... because firstly... i dont really lyk my personal things touch.... usually i dont do anything but just give a black face and ignore alot ppl when i feel pissed... but today/..... dunno why.... got pissed.. and shouted. i noe my shouts my sound lyk crying and many dont really care if i feel pissed... but at lest respect it.... so tired and pissed.... trying to improve on myself..... dunno lar
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this came from jeannes blog... it is slimpifided.... kind off..... but still so long =.=

-YOUR

- full name Felicia Tay Hui Ming.

- Age 14.

- Height 159cm.

- Natural hair colour dark brown close to black.

-  Eye colour dark brown close to black.

- Number of siblings 2.

- Glasses/contacts Glasses [i wan contacts!!!]

- Piercings in total 4.... 3 on my left ear [2 is kind of close] and one on my right ear

- Tattoos no way...

- Braces have.....



- FAVOURITE
- Colour  lime green, dark red, black....

- Band LINKIN PARK, paramore, skillet......

- Song alot......

- Stuffed animal -

- Video game Hmmmp..

- TV show Many!

- Movie Too many ?

- Book  alot

- Food alot

- Flower spider lili.

- Scent Herbal Essences!

- Animal alot sia...

- Comic book er..... blood+.

- Website http://my-sweetest-revenges.blogspot.com/ XD

- Cartoon er...... alot... mostly anime.



- DO YOU
Play an instrument? ya.

Watch TV more than 60 hours a week? not really ... sometimes

Like to sing? kind of.

Have a job?.takin care of my sis..... doing homework??

Have a cell phone? Yes.

Like to play sports? Yes.

Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No.

Have a crush on someone? er.... can it not be answered ??

Live somewhere NOT in the united states? dun tink so

Have more than 5 TVs in your house? na.... .

Have any special talents/skills? no........ is sleeping or emoing counted??=.=.

Excercise daily? Kind of ?

Like school? kind of

Sing the alphabet backwards? yah!.... if no one disturb me

Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes? long time ago =.=

Speak any other languages? Yup!

Go a day without food? No way..... =.=

Stay up for more than 24 hours? can,..... sometime 

Read music, not just tabs? No?

Roll your tongue? yah...??

Eat a whole pizza? I did, when i was very hungry... i ate one and a half of a pizza



– HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house? yah... twice.

Cried to get out of trouble? No!

Gotten lost in your city? I did.....

Seen a shooting star? yes... on a camp

Been to any other countries besides the united states? Yah.....

Had a serious surgery? Yeah. =x

Stolen something important to someone else? Nope.

Solved a rubiks cube? no.... =.=|||

Gone out in public in your pajamas? sadly yes....

Cried over a girl? NO!

Cried over a boy? No.

Kissed a random stranger? no

Hugged a random stranger? yes.....

Been in a fist fight? yes

Been arrested? no 

Done drugs? nah.

Had alcohol? Yes.

Laughed and had milk come out of your nose? no!

Pushed all the buttons on an elevator? yes

Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc? yes.

Swore at your parents? yes....

Been to warped tour? yah

Kicked a guy where it hurts? yes... twice... at pri school

Been in love? once... it is stupid

Been close to love? ...

Been to a casino? Yeah.

Ran over an animal and killed it? NO!

Broken a bone? Nope!

Gotten stitches? yes

Had a waterballoon fight in winter? Winter? no!

Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour? yes.

Made homemade muffins? yes.

Bitten someone? Yeah.

Been to disneyland/disneyworld? both!!!!

More than 5 times? yah :D

Been to niagra falls? No... i want!!!

Burped in someones face? sadly yes XD

Gotten the chicken pox? Nope......





WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
- Brushed your teeth this morning.

- Went to the bathroom This morning =.= .

- Saw A Movie In Theaters  yesterday!

- Read a book now......

- Had a snow day er..... long time ago??last year december

- Had a party is went considered... yesterday class party

- Had a slumber party er..... long time ago?

- Made fun of someone Just i tink! Samuel goh i dunno.....!

- Tripped in front of someone yesterday.

- Went to the grocery store yesterday....... 

- Got sick  Currently.

- Cursed er ... aiko.... tink so... yesterday





– PICK ONE
- Fruit/vegetables Fruit.

- Black/white BLACK.

- Lights on/lights off Lights off!

- TV/movie movie.

- Car/truck truck.

- Body spray/lotion body spray.

- Cash/check Cash.

- Pillows/blankets Pillows.

- Headache/stomach ache None! headache, if i had to choose.

- Paint/charcoal Charcoal

- Chinese food/mexican food chinese food!

- Summer/winter Winter?

- Snow/rain snow!

- Fog/misty Misty.

- Rock/rap Rock?

- Meat/vegetarian Meat.

- Boy/girl ... In what terms? lol

- Chocolate/vanilla Chocolate.

- Sprinkles/icing Icing!

- Cake/pie Pie.

- French toast/french fries French Toast.

- Strawberries/blueberries Blueberries.

- Ocean/swimming pool Swimming Pool.

- Hugs/kisses Hugs.

- Cookies/muffins Cookies.

- Wallet/pocket Wallet.

- Window/door Window.

- Emo/goth  Emo... both nice also XD

- Pink/purple Pink.

- Cat/dog cat!!!.

- Long sleeve/short sleeve Short sleeve.

- Pants/shorts Shorts.

- Winter break/spring break Winter Break.

- Spring/autumn Autumn.

- Clouds/clear sky Clouds. 

- Moon/mars Moon.





- FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have? alot.. but talking bout close frend... only 6 ... i tink

What are their names? sambavi, vivian, faris, alex, nazzera, samuel goh... tink thank all

Do you have a best best friend? yah.... best best is sambavi and vivian.

Have you ever liked one of your friends? Er ??.... primary school

Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? Girl friends.

Have you ever lost a friend? yah.

Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend? Yeah.

Whats an inside joke between you and a friend? must it be told.??

Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend? Yeah....a few times.

Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend? I don't know,

Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you? They are nice too!!

Do you miss any of your old friends? Yes... alot....

What friend have you known the longest? Er, i dunno.

Do you regret anything youve done to a friend? yes.

If so, what is it? must it be told??

How often do you spend time with your friends? Almost everyday! :D

Do any of your friends drive? Nope... 

Has a friend of yours ever died? .yes.......

Whats the dumbest thing you've done with a friend? i dunno

What do you think your friends think of you? maybe a very mood out person... and one with mood swings

Have you ever been in love? ..

If you have, with who? .....!

Are you single? Yeah.

Are you in a relationship? No way....

If so, for how long? .. =.=

Do you believe there is someone for everyone? Yeah... kind of

What is your idea of the best date? a nice sweet and peaceful

What was your first kiss like? er.... non...

How old were you when you got your first kiss? er... haven?

Do you think love is a load of shit? No! Never.

Whats the best experiance you've ever had with the opposite sex? er...??.

Have you ever been dumped? No.

Have you ever dumped someone? No.

Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex? Eew, no way



SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music? er... punk, rock???

What time is it now? 12.02pm.

What day is it? thurday .

Whens the last time you called someone? er.... last night at 10.

How much money do you have right now? er???... its a secret XD.... =.=

Are you hungry? Yes!

Do you like parades? kind of

Do you like the moon? yes

What are you going to do when youre done with this? homework!

Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over? er..... no....

If you could have any magical power what would it be? Have more magical powers.

Have you ever had a picnic? Yes.

Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young? Huh ?

Are you wearing any socks right now? er....?? whyy are u asking??



DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny? kind of

pretty? no.

sarcastic? Yes!

lazy? yah.

hyper? YES.

friendly? sometimes

evil? YES!

smart? No way.

strong? No.

talented? In sleeping and emoing!

dorky? yah



FOR OR AGAINST:
- suicide AGAINST!

- love FOR!

- drunk drivers AGAINST!

- airplanes FOR!

- war AGAINST!!

- canada FOR!

- united states FOR!

- rock music FOR!

- gay marriage ER kind of for?

- school FOR!!

- surveys FOR!

- parents FOR!!

- cars FOR!

- killing AGAINST!!

- britney spears ER..no comments...

- coffee FOR!

- pants FOR!



- WOULD YOU EVER:
Sky dive? YES!!!

Play strip poker? no....??.

Run away? yes... it depends

Curse at a teacher? yes.

Not take a shower for a week? Hell NO!

Ask someone out? yesss.

Lie to someone to make them think better of you? no way.... it is stupid

Visit a foreign country for more than a month? yes.

Go scuba diving? yes!!!

Write a book? yes?

Become a rockstar? YES!

Have casual sex? no way...! it is stupid



LAST QUESTIONS:
What shampoo do you use? Herbal Essencessss!<3>

Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex? ...kay... this is stupid

What kind of computer do you have? Windows XP , MAC?

What grade are you in? Sec 2.

Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies? yah.... more of for fun,.... when i am with super close frend

Or just make out? -.- Like no, duh.

How many posters do you have in your room? None. ...

How many cds do you have? Quite some.

What time is it now? 12.11 pm!!


byebye.... hope you enjoyed it XD

current mood....EMO.... actually quite happy to lar... but just plain tired..
so today had the class outing at ming zhu's house... supose to be samuel's house but something happened las min so.... yah... change to ming zhu's house.... quite fun lar.... got push into the pool many times=.=..... the bbq also super nice...... XD... after that.... went to dry up and played truth or dare which turn to dare or dare... i quite lucky.... even though it point to me... they did not ask me to anything.....
sry for this super short post.... cause my freaking spliting headache is killing me..... i hate it...... keep making me so depress and emo..... 
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ugh!!! hoildays are so boring but school pls dont come so soon... i dun wan to go back to school cause
1)i am going to wear the freaking new skirt.... dun ask me why i had it =.=
2)i so haven finish my homework.... still trying to do....
3)i wan to have my peacful sleep.... cause when school start... i hardly get any sleep.....
4) cause i am scared that i will freak ppl off..... my mood swings.... :(.... 
UGH!!!...
BTW... did you heard a song called Whispers In The Dark by Skillet 
super nice XD... i am in love with it...

[ x 2 ]
Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking 
My love is 
Just waiting 
To turn your tears to roses 

I will be the one that's gonna hold you 
I will be the one that you run to 
My love is 
A burning, consuming fire 

[Chorus:]
No 
You'll never be alone 
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars 
Hear mthe whispers in the dark 
No 
You'll never be alone 
When darkness comes you know I'm never far 
Hear the whispers in the dark 
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged 
You lay here broken and naked 
My love is 
Just waiting 
To clothe you in crimson roses 

I will be the one that's gonna find you 
I will be the one that's gonna guide you 
My love is 
A burning, consuming fire

[Chorus x 2]

Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

now i am so hardworking..... *looks at books on the table* i am studying.... *looks back to the computer screen*...... maybe not dat hardworking.....
KAY..... now to update.... 
SUNDAY 
went to my art tution.... i was a bit mood out.... i dunno why.... so while waiting for my elder sis for a bout an hour to finish her f class... took many black and whit pic.... and this time... [dunno why]... i took of myself..... ps: i look weird.... do not comment..... XD


and yes.... my nails are black... vivan say it is a very deep colour...... =.= 

MONDAY
in the morning i ran with vivian... she ran for 20 mins non stop..... i cant do dat,.... at most i can do is 12 mins.... and it is slow jog.... she jog so fast one.... >.<>
later... in the afternoon... watch 10,000B.C with haresh and his friend...... the show roxs!!!!! love it like hell.... after watching.... i went straight home cause i had a freaking headach...... hate it.....

TODAY(tuesday)
nothing much today also..... just went to shop... did not buy much things.... not in the shopping mood... my elder sis bought so much things... in the end i had to drag it back home...... =.=\\\
ugh...... i shall end the post now..... kind of mood out now.....

(EDITED)
[this post is going to be eddited with pictiures soon.... wait for it!! XD]
sry.... for a late blog.... i am really slow... rite now i am blogging bout the newspaper collection dat happened on saturday..... i am bout 2 days behind time =.= 
kay... to start... went to school and wait for a while before everyone came..... the guys did not come until later..... so simon is the only guy....poor him.... for now.....
so... went to his house... settled down before we started.... while we were doing halfway of our first block.... cheng kiat came and join us....... than after a long while.... qi jun than come......
and after much sweat ..... we finish one block..... 

[part of our pile with cheng kiat on it

we did bout two blocks before we slack.... girls down stairs..... at chicken rice stall.... got a drink while ming zhu ate her rice =.=

[slacking, bao yi playing....]

[cheers to 201 newspaper collection]{see the chicken... it's ming zhu's =.=}(green tea cause it is save the world-.-)

the guys were hiding at simon's house...... the girls went up and when we wanted to go in... the door was lock and the guys "arnt at home"...... quite stupid one... their slipers were like outside... openly place on the ground.... at lest hide it first... so we{ming zhu & i} hid the slipers.... they took 3 pairs of our shoes with them and demanded their slippers back... spent a while finding for my shoes......-.-....
than after a while ... slacking... the guys were lyk suggesting to go play block catching..... than basketball..... some girls went down.... than dunno why simon started chasing qi jun and cheng kiat.... i think cause of the basketball....... simon chased qi jun until he fell.... qi jun was lyk trying to jump over something than he trip and scrape his leg..... got quite alot of blood..... so..... the guys brought qi jun back cause he cant play and the girls just follow..... 
at simon's house... qi jun was being care by a STJB member...... Shanice......yah.... after a while... all of us finally settled  down.... than slack....... =.= .... was desgining class t-shirt when my dad called that i had to go to my grandma house.... than left simon's house and emo the whole nite... not really close to my external family members.... dunno why... maybe cause i am very anti socalble..... but who cares......
ps:....
this is Bao yi's "brother"..... lol 

MOOD.... HAPPY....
today.... i am writing to thank everyone that had every help me, physically and even physiologically..... 
i am minimizing the list to last year and this year.
1) I would like to thank Sambavi and Vivian for being my best friends  and helping me when i am i need.
2) I would like to thank Sambavi again, Faris,  Alex and Nazeera for realy cheering me up when i am down.
3) I would like to thank Aiko, Carine, Jeanne, Juliana, Vivian again and Lyssetta for teaching and commenting on my basketball skills plus tolerating me XD
4) I would like to thank Samuel (goh), Li Jing, Haresh and Lin Wei for to listening to my incentive chattering.
5) I would like to thank Samuel (goh) again for spaming my comment box when i am seriously bored. 
6) I would like to thank all 104'07 ppl ....... for standing me for 1 year!!!..... i am irritating and crazy rite =D.
7) Lastly, i would like to thank 201'08... for not judging me before i came in to 201 :D

thats all..... i tink..... tag on my taxbox if you tink i miss out any....
tomorow... i will dan write all the sorries..... 
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current mood : HYPER!!!!
yesterday went o Queenstown stadium and cheered sam on..... she manage to get in!!!! 
of course went there to cheer Charlene and Michelle ....
was super hyper..... ran under the rain and on the mud... super nice!!!... acted lyk a mad man yesterday.... saw some of 201 over there....
i pratically cheer for ever race... even though there is no one i noe there....  
if i dunno anyone in the race .... i will cheer for all the griffin ppl.... and if got no griffin ppl... i will cheer for the person that runs the fastest....(lol... i noe i am mad....)...
it rain for a while.... while waiting for the rain to stop... i kept pinching faris..... strong temptation...... 
and when the rain stop... i was back screaming lyk hell....... 
my throat quite pain now......

kay.... skip school again... fake sick... dun wan to go to school today.... dunno why.... mood swing maybe... sry yesterday for freaking you guys out (at mac) 
i dunno why was i lyk dat.... to emo lao..... :)
i am super depress by my science marks..... i cant take it.... i am failing pratically EVERY SUBJECT!!!! i cant take it ... i now i am slacking now but i have no self discipline to make myself study... EVEN AT TIMES I STUDY AND STILL FAIL!!! i noe ppl will tell me dat i am not studying correctly .... and if you are going to tell me dat to... AT LEST CAN TELL ME THE CORRECT WAY OF STUDYING!!!!... dont just say it is WRONG AND DONT TELL ME THE RIGHT WAY.... i hate this kind of ppl..... 
in total i fail my either one of my science and chinese.... two subject!!!!
i cant take it!!!! i dun wanna fail.... i was very gd in pri school.... why arnt i am now!!!!!! i am getting super low for maths to!!!.... i dunno why!!!!! i got so high at pri school......
i suck.... i cant even pass all my subject and try at lest to go to 304!!!... IN THE FRIST PLACE... I DUN EVEN NOE IF I REALLY WANT TO GO TO 304.... ALL I NOE I AM SUPOSE TO GO THERE.... 
I F I DO TRIPLE SCIENCE AND A- MATHS... I WILL HAVE MORE FUTURE ...... I WANNA BE SUCCESSFUL!!!!!!...
i noe i must persevere and try not to drop to normal acad..... i must work hard and dont let my parents and teachers which really help me at times down...
I WILL WORK HARD....
okay...... i shall stop this stupid post.... hope i am not scaring you guys off......

i am currently addicted to simple plan's songs....
especially your love is a lie, the end, take my hand....
I BOUGHT THEIR NEW ABULM!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!
your love is a lie
I fall asleep by the telephone
It's two o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you
And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?
So don't try to say you're sorry, or try to make it right
And don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late

You can tell me that there's nobody else
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
It's nothing but a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
You're nothing but a lie