depress
i dunno..... is it part of growing up.... i am getting more and more depress, paranoid and scared ........ i hate it. you may see dat i am very happy at school, which is KIND OF true. But sometimes i feel depress inside while i m smiling on the outside. There is a saying that your eyes are the window to ur soul. while that is true ...... for me. Even if u see me laughing, sometimes y eyes betray me by showing sadness. i try to be happy forever as i noe,it kind of helps ppl. Lyk me, if i see some one always sad, i will get sad too. That is why i try to make everyone happy :] The world will be alot more happier if everyone is happy. Of course the other emotions are need to add spices to our life. BUT NOW I AM MOSTLY DEPRESS!!!!!! I hate it, but i cant help it.....  i want to be happy FOREVER...... YOUNG FOREVER!!!!.  i dont wanna grow up, it is tired, stressful and painful. i hate it....  i am VERY tired of "ur" stupid comments. so wat you hate me, must you be this evil. i dont usually care bout wat you say but some time ur words bug me. i dont want to be lyk this anymore...... 
life is beautiful,  i wanna savour every bit of it. Pls dont spoil it. 
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i think that i am going through a very depressing moments. I am addicted to food. i need to keep on eating.... it make me feel at ease.  cant help myself.  i feel so weak.....
i hate myself..........