emo....
I tink i am going to break my own recored.  i been emo for so long..... only a few moments i was happy....
today once again i am emo......
yesterday i quit bb rite.....
now tan has to tell me that maths and science club ppl must take a test to be really in !!!!  if i fail , i dont have a CCA!!!!! i hate it..... i need CCA points!!!! ...
on the bright side i am not as sad as yesterday......
i  guess now i am depress now........ i still hate myself.......
sometimes when you like something and you cant master it, thats when you hate it. sometimes when most of the things that you like and you cant master them, thats when you get frustrated. Sometimes when all of the things that you like and you cant master them , thats when you feel you life has no more meaning and you feel like ending ur life. Thats what i am feeling.
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i noe i have most of the things i ever need or even want........ but i dunno.... recently thing is kind of changing...... i guess this is the process of growing up..... i cant get use to it..... i am still trying.... things are not going as smoothly as last time. ppl change,,,,,, i hate changes,.,,,,, i am still acting as a child.... i noe....... my pri 6 frendz change..... ALOT!!!! it is like i dont noe them any more....... may be i dont even noe them last time...... .
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last time it is alot smoother ride.... I DONT WANT TO GROW UP!!!